First Day At Work

It has been 6 days since I first checked into the hospital with my wife in expectation of our child's birth. Monday has now come and it is time to get back to a fairly long backlog of work to catch up on. Although I have had my fair share of "lazy to go to work" days, today seemed different. I wanted to stay back and spend the day with my wife and child, but logic overran emotion and off I went to work. It was not till later that evening, when a colleague of mine asked me how I felt leaving my child, did it really hit me how hard it was for me to really do so.

However, with a clear focus to get back home to my wife and child, my focus at work had never been sharper. With a clear drive to address as much work as I could, I had accomplished much and off I was for some home shopping (list provided by my wife) by 9pm.

Once home and exhausted, I imagined some rest and play (with my child) would be possible. Instead, I was directed on various tasks that needed to be done while my wife was feeding our baby. On other days, I would be sullen and grouchy, complaining as to being tired and having asked to do more work upon my return. Not this time though.

Maybe it had to do with seeing my wife being under the scalpel or maybe it had to do with a greater appreciation with the tasks she now has. Not sure what it is, but all I know is that I have to help her out as much as I can... and more importantly, I more than want too, given that I know she too is exhausted.

It is 1am now and soon it will be my wife's turn to stay mildly attentive and look after the baby (not like that has been what I am doing earlier)... hooray. Anyways another day another journey filled with adventure, learning, excitement and anxiety.

-pshasi